Casting Away

It really is...

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Heavy

I am heavy
Drenched with pain
Soaked with shame
How can I even lift my head
It is so full
Of awful thoughts
Right now
I'm drowning
When I need to be sailing
I'm falling
When I need to be flying
I'm dying
When I need to be making new life
And it's so
Fucking
Hard
Right now

Goodbye Today

I am afraid
I am afraid to admit I am afraid
Does saying I'm afraid
Bring unspoken fears
To life

In the darkness I weep
For a life with a little more comfort
And a little less cold
With a little more truth
And a little less pain

I seek solace
Emptiness
A place to rest my head in peace
My body in love
My heart in trust

Alas
There is no place such as this
Which I can see
Except
In the very heart of me

So here I am again
Comforting myself
Crying myself to sleep
Telling myself
Everything is going to be okay

And I know it will
Ultimately
Tomorrow is another day
Today
Today was just hard
That's all

Because not all days are created equal...

From darkness
Into golden light
Your beauty
Breaks down walls
Your strength
Inspires others
To take flight

I am no stranger
To the sleepless night
I am no stranger
To the tragic plight
Of a life of traveling
The road not taken

However close
We ever were
Was never close enough
For me to truly see
Until recently

However far
We ever go
Will never be far enough
For me to forget

As our lives
Cycle
In and out of darkness
Daring us
To be our own
Door to bright
I turn to you
My baby sister
And bask in the love
That sets your soul alight

Thank you
For sharing your love
Your time
Your thoughts
Your insight

Thank you
For sharing your world
And teaching me
A thing or two
About doing more
Than merely surviving
But taking a life of hardship
And being brave enough
To come out thriving

I hurt
As you hurt
I cry
As you cry
I grieve
As you grieve
I love
As you love
I grow
As you grow
I shine
As you shine

The strength
We see
In each other
Is not
Mere reflection
What it is
Is love’s perfection
Sisterly protection
The sweetest confection
Our heart’s projection

When you breathe in
I am here for you
When you breathe out
I am here for you
And my heart swells
With the knowledge
You
Are there for me

Out of Thin Air

Thoughts seem to come out of nowhere
But I feel as though
They are always there
Just like you for me
On some level
Unseen
Thank you
For thinking of me
It helped me out
Today
For here I was
Drowning in my own thoughts
And you lent me yours
And reminded me
Of another time
Another place
When life was full of light
Though not always grace
And I promise
Someday
I'll stop making fun
Of your puddle jumping
Maybe