Monday, September 21, 2015

The day the spider captured the sun

The day
The spider
Captured
The sun
I was already
Prone
To introspection
The morning air
Cold
On my bare shoulders
The shadows of the night
Had taken residence
Beneath my eyes
And it's possible
I found the space
To cry

If someone
(a child perhaps)
Were to ask
Could a spider
Spin a web
Around the sun
Surely
Before this morning
I would have responded
In the negative

Which is a reminder
To stop thinking
I'm so open minded
When I can't even
Imagine
This



Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Dear Sleepless Night,

I know
It's not really that late yet
But I feel you
As though the clock reads
5:00 a.m.
And it's time to wake-up
Because I feel
As though there's no escape
From this place
I exist
In this moment
Until the new day
Breaks

So
Here's the thing
My mind
Is racing
The truth
Of my heart
Eludes me
And my body
My body
Just asks forgiveness
For what it feels

Here inside my arms
I hold this little girl
And she questions me
And my decisions
Because I question
Her
And hers
And all I can do
Is hold her
And say
It will all be okay
And struggle
To believe it
In a way
That makes a difference
To us both

Certainly
There is light inside
Or I wouldn't ever
Escape
The darkness

But the darkness
My shadow
My comfortable cloak
My cherished companion
At times I call you master
And at times
I call you friend
Then I betray you
Curse you
And call for that light
Inside
To chase you away

Tonight
I will just hold your hand
And remember
My dark places
And watch
The way you change
When I shine the light on you
And question
Your existence
In the current context
Of my life

It's not
That I want us to lose touch
Entirely
I acknowledge
And embrace
The humanness
Of it all

It's just that,
Darkness,
Fear lurks
In your shadows
And I'm so tired
Of being afraid
Of everything
All
The
Time

So tonight
Tonight
I think I'm going
To do
Some letting go
Maybe even
In time
To get a little sleep

Love,
Mee

P.S.  I never realized Darkness weighed so much.  I feel lighter already.