Shadow

I was a shadow
Of the woman
I want to be
Until you came
And breathed your love
Into me

It pains me
Sometimes
That I don't remember
Our first time
And so many nights
Between then and now

It soothes me
Though
To know
The crazy nights
Are fewer
And further between

Someday
It could all be
Distant memory

I wonder
At that point
Who will be holding me

...

I despise
That look in your eyes
And that my actions
Put it there

Gentle touch
And soft caress
Turn to stony silence
And troubling egress

Loving glance
Of days now past
Your eyes askance
Mine downcast

My actions stack
You don't forgive
I failed our love
And cease to live

I yet draw breath
But heart is cold
The love we shared
An empty hole

I have been growing
But admit to stumble
I rise again
A lot more humble

I seek your heart
And find it lost
One night of drinking
My greatest love the cost

D3 (I Try)

I try to wrap words

Around this feeling

of love

I carry for you

in my heart

But they fall away

forming a puddle

of useless babble

At my feet

The enormity

Of the emotion

Too intimidating

I try to capture moments

Like a photograph

for proof of the intensity

Of the love

I carry for you

in my heart

But my brain fixates

On the smile in your eyes

Or the joy in your laugh

And the big picture

Is lost

I try to illustrate

Our story in pictures

But my drawings

fall short

Of the truth

The love that I feel

Contorted

by shading and shadow

Reality hides

in the folds of my pen

and the crease of my paper

Still, I offer you this poor attempt

Because you were born today

And that makes this day

More special than others

And I'd like to offer you something

Other than just me

Because I'm yours every day anyway

D2 (My Love)

My amorphous love
Found you
And took shape

My monochromatic love
Found you
And like light through a prism
Transformed

My shallow love
Found you
And deepened

My limited love
Found you
And became unlimited

My old love
Found you
And was made new

You've changed everything
And I will never
Love the same again

Thank you for that

D1

I found this book
Tattered and torn
Battered and worn
But love
Is in these pages
Love
As my heart wages
Rages
Cages
Anything my heart can do
My brain will get mad about

I need a masterpiece
Magic words
Verses of valor
And great worth
But my mind
Is not birthing
Perfection
This night
Your mom did though
30 some years ago
And here I falter
Again and again
Trying to pull a miracle
From paper and pen

A few good lines
Is all I need
But they elude me
And I must concede