Monday, October 24, 2011

Meaning

Words
Have different meanings
Assigned
By the speaker
And the recipient

It's no wonder
Communication
Can be such a difficult task

Actions
Have different meanings
Assigned
By the actor
And the observer

It's no wonder
Communication
Can be such a difficult task

Life
Has different meanings
Depending
On who you ask

It's no wonder
Living
Can be such a difficult task

Love
Has just one meaning
But infinite manifestations

It's no wonder
Loving
Can be such a difficult task

Friday, October 14, 2011

Dear Samurai,

Did you know that I need you as much as you need, or perhaps more?  You are my light in the dark.  You are the sweetest soul.  I am so proud to be your Mama, and I hope that I can always make you proud and happy in return.

The life I have lived so far, I hope that you can learn from all my choices, good and bad.  From all my pain and sadness, so that you may not have to know your own.  At least, not in the same ways.  I pray for the wisdom to be able to always communicate to you appropriately these lessons I have so harshly learned, in a way that you can hear, understand and internalize.

I love you with everything I am, have been and will come to be.  There are but a few people who have been privileged enough to know this kind of love from me.  It is too overwhelming for all but the purest of heart and intention, and so it is extra special for me when I am able to freely share it.

This morning was beautiful.  It will be a beautiful day.  Enjoy it, my love.

Forever yours,
Mama


Friday, October 7, 2011

Three Things

Why do I feel?

Why do I feel
When the alternative
Would hurt so much less

Why do I feel
When turning it off
Would allow me so much rest

Why do I feel
When it drags me
Through the depths of despair

Why do I feel
When my feelings
Deprive me of air


I feel because it's beautiful
Even in its darkest moments

I feel because it's natural
And numbness is no way to live

I feel because it's real
And faking it has never been my style

I feel because it's life
And I don't want to miss being alive

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Have You?

Have you ever dreamed an impossible dream
And woken up to find it is your reality

Have you ever been destroyed by reality
Only to find it was all just a dream

Have you ever bravely unmasked your worst enemy
Only to find your own face, staring back at you

Have you ever stared at your image in the mirror
Not recognizing the face as your own

Have you ever repeated a word so many times 
It lost all meaning

Have you ever been scared to utter a word
Because it meant so much

Have you ever wanted to bash your head into a tree
Just to relieve the pain inside your brain

Have you ever wanted to hang your heart on a telephone pole
And watch the crows and squirrels feed on it because it would make it hurt less

Have you ever loved in such a way that the world stopped around you
And when the world started again you found you'd been left behind

Have you ever hated in such a way that unimaginable horrors became desirable
And when you stopped to breathe you could see only love

Have you ever dreamed an impossible dream
And woken up to find it is your reality

Have you ever been destroyed by reality
Only to find it was all just a dream

Afternoon Tune