In Between

 In between 

Here and there

Is Now

Or is Now

Between 

Past and Present

Is the past

Between

Here and there?

Is the present

Here and now?

Did I?

In the quiet

Of the morning

I chastise myself

For thinking of you 

Still

I worked so hard

To keep my heart

To myself

But 

In the end

It became entangled 

 

And now

I work to free it

Entwined as it is

With my thoughts

And memories

Of you

 

You know

I wanted

To rip my heart

Right out of my chest

And hand it to you

 

But I knew

You wouldn't take it

And I would be left

With a gaping hole

And my blood

All over your floor

 

And I realize

This imagery

Is a little violent

For a love poem

But sometimes

Love

Can feel a little violent

To me

 

You assaulted me

With your vulnerability

Opening up

The way you did

It triggered a thirst 

In me

To know you more

 

The more I knew you

The more I ached

To be your person

The one to hold your heart

A little less violently

Perhaps

Than previously described

How many times

Have I known 

The taste of love?

 

Enough to know

I crave

Its delicious flavor

Its elusive nature

Enough to know

The difference 

Between attraction

And the ability

To deeply connect

On a soul level

I had to walk away

Before you destroyed me

And I know

I did the right thing

Because it hurts so much

And I never even

Gave you my heart

...or did I?