Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Sorry

I wish
I could be sorry
Until
It all
Went away
And we
Could go back
To the way
We once were

I wish
I could repent
Until
You forgave me
And I
Could know you
Once more

I wish
I had nothing
To even
Be sorry
About

But here we are
And my heart breaks
Again and again
When I think of you
And what I did

I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry

You don't care
And it means nothing
To you
But it means
Everything
To me
That I am sorry
Because it reminds me
Of how much
I love you

Morning

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Reflections

You broke me
Into a million pieces
So stealthily
I didn't even know
Until I tried
To touch
The truth
And found
My reality
Was a reflection
You constructed
Just for me
To see

When I touched
The truth
The image
Rippled away
And I saw
All that was underneath
And it was ugly

The thing is
I know myself
And my strength
So I reassembled
Those million pieces
And in the process
Of putting myself
Back together
I found
I am stronger
With my new
Pieces of you
I needed
To become
Whole
Again

And now
Here I am
Today
Wholly new
Newly whole

But I
Admit
I have
My weaknesses
And so
I must
Stay away
From you
Lest
I break apart
Again

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Thanks

I am not so naive
As to think
No one
Has ever loved
Like this
Before

I am not
So naive
As to think
No one
Has ever
Been hurt
Like this
Before

This fact
Does not
Invalidate
What I am going through
Quite
The opposite
In fact

Throughout history
The pain
The suffering
Of humankind
Has been a bridge
To connect
Our souls, bodies and minds

In my pain
Desperation
Isolation
I do the one thing
I would never do
Otherwise

I reach out
I connect
And I find
Myself
Inspired
By the beauty
Of my friends
And family

I find
Myself
In awe
Of all
That surrounds me

I may not
Be saying
Thank you
To him
But I do
Say thank you
To the universe
For its bounty
And the opportunity
To see
And the humility
To accept
And the people
Whose love
Is so true
And unconditional

Thank you


Morning Muse-ic