Quote of the Day

"Corruption of the best is the worst."

"Corruptio optimi pessima"

Dear Nexen,

When my arms feel tired

Because you need to be held

A little longer than usual

And you finally fall asleep

Enough for me to put you down

I marvel

At how empty

My arms feel

Without you in them

And I remember

How quickly

These days will pass

And you will barely

Need me to hold you

At all

And when you wake-up

And ask to be held again

I forget

That my arms were ever tired

So much funky shit...

Sorry

I wish
I could be sorry
Until
It all
Went away
And we
Could go back
To the way
We once were

I wish
I could repent
Until
You forgave me
And I
Could know you
Once more

I wish
I had nothing
To even
Be sorry
About

But here we are
And my heart breaks
Again and again
When I think of you
And what I did

I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry

You don't care
And it means nothing
To you
But it means
Everything
To me
That I am sorry
Because it reminds me
Of how much
I love you

Morning

Samurai and Abacus Taming the Wild Beasts

Reflections

You broke me
Into a million pieces
So stealthily
I didn't even know
Until I tried
To touch
The truth
And found
My reality
Was a reflection
You constructed
Just for me
To see

When I touched
The truth
The image
Rippled away
And I saw
All that was underneath
And it was ugly

The thing is
I know myself
And my strength
So I reassembled
Those million pieces
And in the process
Of putting myself
Back together
I found
I am stronger
With my new
Pieces of you
I needed
To become
Whole
Again

And now
Here I am
Today
Wholly new
Newly whole

But I
Admit
I have
My weaknesses
And so
I must
Stay away
From you
Lest
I break apart
Again