Hurt

I hurt
Still
From you,
Yes
But from me,
Mostly

I feel as though
Lately
I've been sharpening my swords
And stabbing myself
Because
For a moment
Life felt good

And now
I guess now
I have placed myself
On a new precipice
Hanging off
Facing certain death
I feel normal again
My survival instinct
Resurrected

My fear
My despair
Acute
But so familiar

I'm writing again
That says everything
Doesn't it?

I hurt
All over
From you,
Yes
But from me,
Mostly