Raise your hand if you think this song is about me.

Music Moments

Hard to Believe

It's hard to believe I haven't written anything yet this year.  I should have been writing, that's for sure.  I just know that right now, in the middle of this chaos and confusion, my heart has been filled just as much as my patience tried (which is quite a lot).  In the end, I am grateful.

And that's just something that needed to be said.

I hope to be back to writing regularly soon.

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Who

Who will it be
That grows old with me
Enjoying the quiet moments
Of an empty house
Still echoing
With the noise of young life

Who will it be
That comes to know me
In the way
That no one ever has
In the way
That no one else
Ever will

Who will it be
That comforts me
When the tears fall
About everything
Or nothing at all

Who will it be
That receives a smile from me
First thing in the morning
And last thing at night

Who will it be
That finds me
Ready to love
Ready to trust
Ready to give over
My particular brand of lust

Who will it be
That captures my heart
And takes my hand
And walks with me
Down this road of life

Do I know you already
Or have we yet to meet

I think I am ready now
Transformation complete.

Dear Drew,

I've been wanting to write a letter and mail it to you, with the socks you've left at my house, but I'm glad that I didn't.  Because until now, everything I wanted to write was to let you know my truth. My reality.  The side of our equation that never added up for you, at least in my perspective. 

I'm glad that I didn't.  Because it would have been a waste of time, I can see that now.  And, I'm sure you've replaced the socks by now if you needed them.

So in this letter, all I want to say (and I won't bother sending it either), is that I'm sorry.  I'm sorry I was so focused on trying to improve myself, that I couldn't see I was losing you in the process.  If I'd had more awareness, I like to think I could have grown both as a person and in our relationship.  But I accept that wasn't our path.

I also want to say thank you.  I was on the road to a really wreckless place, and you lifted me up and provided me safe harbor.  I love you more than you will ever understand, and that's the reason I could never walk away.  As much as my brain wanted me to, and as much as my mouth said I would.

I miss you every day.

Love,
Mee

From Me to Mee