It's so hard

Life is so hard
Without you

It's so hard
And I thought
It was so much harder
With you
Come to find out
I was only okay
Sometimes
Because I had you
And life
It's just hard anyway

Facing Reality

Facing the reality
Of the mistakes I've made
Is the hardest thing
I've had to do

But I want to do better
So I have to face what I've done
And forgive myself
And others in some cases

But your failure to thrive
Is my failure
To do more than just survive
Which
For a while
Is all I thought I could do

But I can do better
And I will do better
And I'm sorry
I let myself go
For so long

I love you.

Goodbye, my love

My heart
Is sore
And tender

My eyes
Are moist
And red

My mouth
Is quiet
And downturned

My remorse
Is deep
And tangible

All the starts
And stops
To prepare me

The full stop
Hurts more than I anticipated.

For you though,
I am happy to end the struggle.

August Passed

August passed
And I didn't write anything
Well, no blogs.

A lot happened though.

I think I'll just say this, about August...