Where were you?

Where were you
When I was lost
Searching for truth
In the darkness
Of deceit

Where were you
When I was looking
For meaning
In the space
Between my breaths

Where were you
When I was crying
Waterfalls
Of sorrow
Pools of pain

Where were you
When I was wandering
Cold
And alone

Where were you
When I cried out
For an end
To the misery
Of this chosen path

Were you watching
Were you listening
Were you hoping

Were you waiting
Were you wandering
Were you writing

There were times
I thought I knew
It was you

There were times
I was sure
It wasn't

At this time
All I know
Is that you're out there

And that your path
Was as difficult
As mine

And the strength
We'll have together
When it's time
Is unobtainable
To anyone
But us

So it doesn't matter
Where you were
And it doesn't matter
Where you are
All that matters
Is that we're ready
When we find each other
Again
For the first time
Again
For the last time
Again
For the only time

03/15/2018

Today my heart rises

Large and full

Like a supermoon

Thirteen years ago

Your birth journey

Brought to surface

Not only

The strength

I hold within

But

The strength

Of all women

First

Moving inside me

Then

Moving through me

Finally

Just

Moving me

I remember

Your first smile

Your first wave

Your first kiss

Your first hug

Your first step

Traveling through

The twists and turns

Of my memories

Of you

I am reminded

Over and over

How you taught me

To love

How you taught me

The importance

Of being myself

How you taught me

That true strength

Is keeping

An open heart

Even when you're hurting

And so today

We celebrate

Your journey

Thirteen years

Of beauty

In mind

In spirit

In action

Thirteen years

Of loving you

I'm still growing

Into my role

As your mother

You're still growing

Your mind

Your spirit

Your actions

And I'm so proud

Of every moment

Of our journey

I love you Sami