Friday, March 15, 2013

Dear Samurai,

You're 8!

So, eight years ago, at this moment, I was wondering whether the contractions were going to continue into actual labor or disappear into the light of day as they had been doing all week.  I couldn't have possibly imagined what light I was about to bring into the world.

Your strength, love and beauty have amazed me from the very first moment you emerged.  The ways you have changed my life, my heart and my soul are innumerable.  

This year we welcomed a new baby into our family.  The transition was both the easiest and most difficult thing we have ever done together.  But you are the most amazing big sister I could even imagine.  Watching you play with, care for, and teach your baby brother is one of the greatest joys I have known in my lifetime.  It is such a validation of life and the choices that I have made, confusing as they may be.  

I know you won't understand all of this now, but hopefully someday you will look back on these letters I've submitted to the eternity of cyberspace and hear me speaking from a place you connect with at that time in your life.  Eight more years from now, or eighty, these words will not be less true, my love will not be less real and you, my darling daughter, will not be any less amazing.

I love you and I hope you have a wonderful birthday.

Forever love,


  1. Brings tears to my eyes. You're an incredible mother with an incredible heart. I love you.

  2. And you, absent from my day to day life but always present in my heart, I hope you are well my love. I look forward to our next fateful meeting.